So I’ve moved out of JHB and I am back to Pretoria where I feel I belong. The thing that annoys me the most is how the people I left behind in JHB blame me and make me feel like a cow for moving back home. Is it so wrong to want to be in a place where you know you will be happy?It doesn’t matter now anyway. I’m back in Pretoria, I’m searching for apartments so that I can move out of my grandparents’ house, I’m gonna be in a band, my birthday is in 3 days, I’m spending the weekend with my boyfriend, and I’ve got my guitar back- why wouldn’t I be happy?
To answer my question: I think I’m allowing myself to feel guilty because I care too much about what other people think of me. I should remember that when I moved to JHB I broke a lot of hearts because I was leaving people behind here as well. And my need to keep everyone happy isn’t working out so well.
Tis still early days though. Guitar strings crossed that everything turns out well.