“Keep your head up, keep your heart strong” – Ben Howard
First of all. This song. *dies and softly weeps in fetal position*
You know that feeling you get, when you suddenly wake up in the middle of the night, not knowing where you are or how you got there?Still in a state of sleep and wakefulness.
For a few seconds you forget you’re in your own room, exactly where you’ve always been. Everything feels unfamiliar and unknown in the dark.
I think that’s how I feel at the moment. How a lot of us feel at seventeen.
I’ve suddenly woken up from a peaceful sleep for no apparent reason, and everything just feels somewhat out of place. As if I can’t remember how I got to where I am, and I have no idea what I’m doing here.
Looking around for something that feels or looks familiar.
Looking for something or someone who will see my confusion. Someone to tell me what to do, or just say, ”hey you, that’s why you feel like this.” and I’d be all ”oh yeah, thanks man” and I’ll fall back asleep.
The thing is, maybe I’m not suppose to go back to sleep again.
E.E Cummings said ”It takes courage to grow up and become who you truly are.”
This unfamiliarity causing us to find out for ourselves what it is that we want. What it is that we’re doing. Staying awake for a while, in the dark, so that when the rest of the world wakes up, we won’t need them to tell us where we are or what to feel, cause we’ll know.
And while I’m awake some Ben Howard is definitely helping! <3
D A N I …
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